So what are you doing?..

This is something I get asked a lot since I was made redundant. There are so many ways I could answer: I’m taking some time out to assess my options, full time parenting, home management, housework, writing, writing, writing, dreaming, scheming, planning. But I never feel my answer is adequate, or even sometimes acceptable. This is what I’d like them to know…

You ask me how I fill my time.

I say

Time fills me.

It fills me with the capacity to share your moments; with the scope to make puddings from the autumn abundance of apples; with the slack to snuggle on the sofa with my children; with space in my brain for thought to ripen and thrive; and to linger when the world has radiance to show me.

I will not give you a list of things I have done.

In this allotted span of time I can only sing my song; wholly and completely.